I completely understand where you are coming from. Its hard going back to certain structures once you have tasted a real commission check in the past. I get it.
I'm also in the process of trying to figure out if I should do this on my own. I got out of the biz last month after being in it for 5 months. You can't really put a price on the experience you gain. There are so many little beneficial details that I would have never picked up without observing my colleagues.
I guess I was one of the few ( according to Sidney) who were able to do 3 deals within my first 90 days. I did my first deal my 2nd month and did two deals my 3rd. This was in the current economy, just a couple months ago. I'm as confidant as the next guy, but realistically I don't think I could have done it without guidance.
I know its not much advice, but I hope it helps. Feel free to send me a message if you have any questions.